First Version |
This isn’t what I want to do today.
It isn’t that Day 2 wasn’t useful. It was and I had a great day diving into typography with the videos in Module 3. I made four versions of a quote that was part of the day, and each one got better … I think. I’ll put them below for you to judge.
But, yesterday evening handed me a blow. My beloved toy poodle of ten years, Missy, was hit by a car and killed. It was sudden and shocking and part of me just wants to go to bed and not get up. I’ve only been here in Mexico for two and a half months, but, fortunately, very good friends who have become family are also here. But, without Missy, I feel alone and abandoned. She was a brilliant companion, easy going, smart, and loved hugging people.
Missy at Moonstone Beach, Cambria, CA |
Ten years ago, shortly after my husband died, and a few months before Missy arrived, I stumbled into a digital collage class in Puerto Vallarta. It required Photoshop which I didn’t own. But, I bought it and headed out expecting to be the dunce of the class. When I arrived, I was the only person in the class and had a solid week of one-on-one Photoshop tutoring and collage making.
When I returned to my empty house, I made art and it changed my life, helped heal my heart. Now I have a choice of whether to honor the commitment I made to finish this 21-day program or let it go and wait until I feel better and stronger to try again.
I don’t particularly think that things happen for a reason, but I do believe that we can find meaning in everything that happens to us. Until yesterday, the AWAKE program and this 21-day course were “add ons.” Life was good, comfortable and it would be nice to take the next step in my art. Now, it already tugs at me like a life-line, something that will help me deal with this loss.
If I decide to postpone this course, what would I do instead? What else could I lose myself in that would help me deal with the pain? No answer comes.
One can only spend so much time feeling broken. Posting this is my decision to go forward. I am already feeling the beginnings of connection to the AWAKE group. Their work inspires me and it feels like I have found my artistic tribe. I know that making art is what I need to do, my way of dealing with my world, inner and outer.
A friend of mine tells me Missy is now an angel watching over me. So, if I wind up making pictures of dogs with angel wings, you will know why. Be kind.
So, in the meantime, here is the quote I worked and reworked as I watched the videos on typography. Tomorrow maybe I’ll actually deal with the content of clearing the decks.
Version 2: A quote from
Rick Poyner changed the way I think about quotes and text on a page, so I
tried to emphasize the important parts of the message:
"The aim here is to promote multiple rather than fixed readings, to provoke the reader into becoming an active participant in the construction of the message."
Version 2 |
Version 4: More techniques and playing and I arrived here. Will it be the last? Who knows?
By the way, I like knowing the person behind quotes, so here's what I found from Wikipedia:
Lin Yutang ( October 10, 1895 – March 26, 1976) was a Chinese mystic, writer, translator, linguist and inventor. His informal but polished style in both Chinese and English made him one of the most influential writers of his generation, and his compilations and translations of classic Chinese texts into English were bestsellers in the West.
Oh Joyce. Farewell Missy.
ReplyDeleteI get so annoyed with 'things hspoen for a reason' as a panacea for dealing with everything sad or bad, but indeed we do find meaning in everything. The trick is to find a supportive one. I am do glad you are continuing with the 21 days as a way not to push down your grief but to work through it. And should I encounter them, I shall appreciate little dogs with wings making a presence.
I loved seeing the typography develop and its a great quote.
From pain comes rare beauty....
ReplyDeleteThanks Lynn and Susan. I truly appreciate your thoughts.
ReplyDeleteSo sad for you and your little Missy. She was so cute. I know you will miss her, and I'm fine with little doggies with angel wings.
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeleteJoyce, I love this quote and your typographical iterations. Learning through pain...what a tribute to Missy.
ReplyDeleteDearest Joyce, I love how the universe takes me places I wasn't anticipating -- and here I am this morning, on lesson 2 of your series because I popped into your final one to check up on your progress.
ReplyDeleteI missed Lesson 2 which means I missed the sad passing of Missy. I remember when she arrived in your life. If I recall, you were a little resistant to her presence and then... she surrounded you with the every-healing presence of love and you became 'an item'.
My Ellie passed away three years ago. I was absolutely heartbroken -- and then... love stepped in to remind me -- life and death are equal partners in the journey. I painted several paintings after she passed -- one of them is called, The Guardian and hangs in my living room to remind me, love is always present.
Beaumont arrived two years ago and once again, a four legged friend has become a light of love on my path.
I am sorry for your loss Joyce. Missy was a special carrier of love and while she is gone, love remains. Always.
Much love to you dear Joyce.
Louise, thank you for your thoughts about Missy. She brought such light into my life. I am so sorry to hear about Elle. I vividly remember your pictures and words about her. I've missed you and our connections so it is lovely to reconnect and know that you are still pouring love and creativity into the world. many hugs, j
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